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Adrian, all packed up, heading down the fourth floor corridor at the Manor Hotel by JA to begin his long journey home
Adrian, all packed up, heading down the fourth floor corridor at the Manor Hotel by JA to begin his long journey home Google Maps Location

Time Heals All Wounds?

Category: Struggle & Overcoming
Tags: Anxiety Endurance in Trials Father & Son God's Will Loss Manor Hotel by JA Sadness Turning Points

Two years on and I can still feel the ache in my heart...

It was April 2, 2023 3:00am - Dubai(UAE) I had spent the past month with my son Adrian, hoping and praying that we could leave together. I was supposed to have gone home in late February but fate had different plans for me. Plans that at the time I could not fathom, but in hindsight everything has become crystal clear.

That night I felt utterly lost, alone, helpless and abandoned. Not by my son but by my own inner turmoil. I turned to the only place I could, my Lord! I prayed and cried for release but none was forthcoming. I would follow Adrian's flight online, from liftoff in Dubai until he landed safely at Heathrow. I couldn't sleep, I was inconsolable and my heart was aching. I was really all alone, perhaps for the first time ever in my life? I wasn't even sure if I knew how to be alone. I was 53 years old and was scared.

I waited and watched as his taxi took him away, his last words to me were, "Dad, don't worry, God's got this."